lizziskitzo2010

so my lovely day was more like a roller coaster rife gone terribly wrong. woke up next to my amazing boyfriend but that was about the highlight of the day. you see, i am paranoid schitzophrenic and bipolar soo i go a bit hay-wire and crazy at times... today was one of those times... we have been having a few minor tiffs over me spazzing thinking he doesn't care about me half as much as i want to believe he does.. today's final gernade pin was a tiny little "i am loved" pin. this stupid tiny pin symbolized my childhood me and a few friends would go up to the mall every chance we had enough money and go hang out up there and the object before w

Ok, so you know how there is that whole " omg aannnddrrroooiiidd" craze going on?, well my lovely boyfriend has that... no not the " omg  androd" the "i'm really with my phone my gf is a cover up and i use her for all the intimate things i can't use my phone for" craze, at least that;s what it is starting to feel like and being who i am and the fact that i haven't vented here in a long time i figured i'd blow off some steam here. i had started to notice that when placed in a social setting he reverts into his phone texting, networking, or playing games on it. at first i thought, " well he did just get it less than a month ago maybe he is stil

Every sound in this awful home makes you long to be alone. Every screech every thud every everything and everyone, they all make death seem so great it makes you hope the reaper won't be late, you never get to sleep cause even then they proceed making you want to just wake up and leave you pry at the windows scratch at the doors bang on the walls and claw on the floors,   but my friend dearest to me i regret to inform you that you may not leave, see the keep you trapped here with all their lies, " things will get better over time" they tell you they need you then throw you away you are just a pawn in their sick little game they